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2026年3月24日 23:30:34
𝟏𝟏:𝟏𝟏 ༯ Will you, won’t you.ᐣ :
mulling over...
i used to resent you (miss ameyalli and i share[d] a few surface-level similarities ... we weren't ever close or anything, either - just my own insecurity!), but as time passes, i find myself missing your presence even if it wasn't closely intertwined with mine. now in a time and place where silly things in common don't cause me to feel, let's say.. threatened, i find you quite kind and lovely. i look back on it feeling silly for the way my mind worked and i wish i had taken the chance to actually attempt to know you rather than painting a bit of a rude and negative picture. i know you got a lot of hate back then (although i remember you always being able to remain positive amidst allegations, stalkers, and hate), so, i want to apologize for my previous bad image of you .. i was never a hater or anything, but it still feels poorly to have assumed you were some treacherous queen rather than assume you are how you portray yourself
the last i had seen from you was before the original retrospring shut down, so it's interesting to see how you've grown, as well (^_^) i hope you are doing well, miss! how have your days been going?
返信日時:2026年3月28日 15:03:11
I wouldn’t say any image of me is particularly wrong — perception is dictated by experience & emotion. If you grew up knowing green as blue, who am I to tell you grass isn’t blue & that the sky isn’t green?
I find it liberating, in some aspects, to not concern myself on whether or not others see me as I see myself (Which, of course, is as all). I can still be a control freak, a desire for control is ever—present in my bones & soul. How could a Goddess such as moi not want to keep everything in order❔ But I manage such feelings much better these days, I’d say.
In any case — How you felt was understandable both now & then, but growing & maturing is even better!
As for my days … 💭 Well, I still use French. Much of my days are spent at work, and when I’m not working I’m at the gym. This Goddess still thrifts often & upkeeps her wardrobe! Recently, I’m trying to change my diet in non—harmful ways, after realizing I have ARFID. I’m going to a concert soon (I like to go to one per year ever since my first Violent Vira concert), & I’m expecting a raise within the next two weeks. Life is mundane but beautiful, I came here to learn what it means to be mortal & I shall appreciate it.
What of you, little ice cream cone?